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2008-04-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

If i could fall into the sky ~
haiz recently i have been in kinda DEPRESSED mood thinkin through this year 2008 D: its like just the starting of april and sho much things had took place.. haiz.
and tat i also find dar kinda cold 2 mi this days DX sad case .. but i guess ish he 2 strees le ba i understand..
i feel sho empty inside. sch i dun wan join in the crowd dun feel like.
russian class is a drag its sho diff D: even the abc also sho dif must learn haiz.. life sure ish hard ..
currently savin all my one dollar coins $_$
JOB WANTED D: i need a living 2 ..

2008-04-06T23:05:00.002+08:00

sho it wa ytd

HAPPY 1MONTH TO DARDAR x33 愛}

went out PLAY EAT SLACK :D
&& we also did our wedding licence on tat day lor *HOHO move frm a place to another end up same place lols...anyways had our weddin thok was gona fail coz last try le we just need tat 1 more hart lor but finaly in the last 46sec we did it :D.. and weddin licence complete .. *AW SHO SWEET... but slack ard le went grandma house nt realy before tat mi and erin went to hougang ball.. walk ard den go kfc buy dinner since i got the free redemtion thingy.. den tok bus home.. we were like dam noisy at the bus stop.. i mean we were noisy the whole day lor D: went to park eat marcham picnic.. talk thr till ard 1030pm den i go bak gm house slp on sofa wa dam hot lor..

2008-04-06T23:00:00.002+08:00

hoho this bottle of hart were given 2 mi by dar dar :D 1mth ani preasent lurh [345hart]

and deh cookie monster little plushy x3

at home sian jiu go draw on my hand :D

2008-04-06T16:35:00.005+08:00

ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Y MY MUMMEH MUST ALWAYS MAKE MI PISSED! CARNT SHE SHUT HER FUCKKING ASS FOR JUST 1DAY? OR EVEN HALF A DAY MUST SHE ALWAYS BRING UP SOMETHING 2 SCOLD MI =.= WTFUCK MAN.. WAT ISH UR FUCKKING PROBLEM WAD EU WAN FROM MY LIFE. I HAVE NOTHING TO GIF YOU!
CARNT EU UNDERSTAND TAT IF I REALLY CANOT DO SOMTHING MEANS I REALLY DONNO HOW WAD. MUST EU SAY WAD ALWAYS AS EU DO THINGS EU DUNNO HOW 2 DO. PLZ LOR IM NOT A ROBORT NEITHER AM I CLEVER. IF I DUNNO HOW 2 DO MEANS DUNNO LAR WADS UR PROBLEM? IF I SAY I KNOW DEN I DO LIAOWS SPOIL DEN EU WILL STILL SCOLD MI WAD . DEN I SAY I DUNNO HOW 2 DO ALSO MUST SCOLD?
AR EU CLEVER OR HOW CLEVER AR EU? FORCE MI DO THINGS I DUN LIKE NVM LIAOWS SUA NOW I DUNNO HOW 2 DO JIU SAY ASK DUMB! IF IM DUMB MEANS IM FOR WAD I ACT SIA? I SAY ALSO WRONG DUN SAY ALSO WRONG? SO WAD EU WAN SIA.. SAY WRONG DUN SAY ALSO WRONG.. HOW I WISH I CAN LOCK MY WORDS UP SIA. LIVE WITH EU THIS KINDA PPL SHORTENS MY LIFE. ALWAYS MUST FAN WHEN EU WILL SCOLD MI . WTHELL I DID WRONG. I GOT ALOT THINGS 2 THINK ABOUT LIAOWS LOR. NOW EU SAY CHILDREN DUN HAVE 2 FAN NAO PLZ LOR IF NO FAN NAO I WILL BE LIKE ANGEL LAIWOS NOT HUMAN LIAOWS =.= COMMENTSENCE SHLD TELL EU TAT... NTHING 2 WORRY HOW I WISH? I UR EYES IM ALWAYS WRONG.. EU AR ALWAYS CORRECT.. ITS LIKE OUR AGE GAP ALREADY TELL EU IM UNSUTABLE FOR EU !!! Y GOD DONT UR CHILD TO DIE BE4 IT WAS BORN ISH BECAUSE EU AR NOT FIT TO BE A MOTHER .. EU CB.! HAIZ!!!!!!!!!!!! SHO WAD DID I DO WRONG NOW TO DESERVE THIS? I DID I NEBER BE IN THIS WORLD. I WILL REALY HAVE NO FAN NAO.. OR MAYBE I DID BE SOME ONE'S CHILD INSEAD.. A PARENT MUCH YOUNGER DEN EU.. EU AR SHO FUCKKING OLD I GO OUT WITH EU PPL ALWAYS ASK MI UR AH MA AR? WTF SIA EU NT PS IM DEAD PS LOR.. SOME MORE DADDEH ISH YOUNGER DEN EU!!! LOGICAL ANOT? AND COMMENT SENCE TELL MI TAT THR ISH GRASS GROWING IN UR BRAIN.. TOTAL IDIOT EU AR .. IM SHO HAPPY TAT EU WILL BE GOIN AWAY FOR 3DAys EVEN IF ITS JUST 3DAYS IM HAPPY ENUFF.. Y MUST I ALWAYS PUT ON MY PLASTIC SMILE?? EU HAD NEBER UNDERSTAND MI MAYBE EU JUST UNDERSTAND MY OUTSIDE.. BUT INSIDE OF MI ITS GROWING WEBS!! ? BECAUSE FOR EU .. WOW AM I GREATFULL TO EU.. !@!@#@@#$#$@

lord tat i just pray tat

i can be my mummehs good little

ANGEL

y must i always be bad in her eyes

can i be good for once!

i was neber happy with her

even if i tried to

even if im smiling infront of her

its just tat plastic smile ut the hidden sorrows

i wish i could just have a silent death

i would love 2 die for who ever i dun care.

coz i hate my life to the very MAX!

2008-04-04T15:48:00.003+08:00

hoho took this pic on deh way home de D: the sky sho nice light n dark blue x3

=.= nthin 2 do in sch cher vry boring sho draw on the text book lor D: *im sho creeative

After the lesson cher neber rub the board sho we go change the words lor xD
1.MANGING BUT-TOR
2.PERSONNEL ASS
3.ACCOUNTS UNDIES
4.CHARMEH
5.ADMINISTRATION .. MISS OUT LOLS
6.PURCHASING LOSSERS
-PRODUCTION XXX
7.SALES BRA
8.DEPARTMENT FEET

2008-04-01T16:50:00.003+08:00

haiz today APRIL FOOLS DAY DD: but to mi ish more like FURM MY ASS OF DAY!
lets talk about sch 1st lar DD: 2day aprill fool lor

1st fool my dar
2nd cherS

i tell dar say wan brk D: lols any ways tat fake lar huh its just april fools XP!

eng cher leh we whole class do lor we prepair hao le but cher come in wrong time sho we canot do 1st period jiu everybody diam diam lor.. den he our form cher also mah he got another lesson with us at almost the last 3 period sho we get ready when he come in everything was normal den he carry on with his maths teaching.. den my fwen suppose to faint sho she try faint every whr 3times but cher neber c sho we bo bian.. ask the ger siti sit at the side de raise her hand pretend ask cher somthing.. den the faint-er adrina she must act but 1st 3 time fail sho now when siti ask cher come teach her something she prepair .. den she purposely fall of the chair dam loud lar D:
cher was like O_O* den everyboady jiu crow ard .. sho cher say wad leave her alone asign adew ppl go help her but since its a act mah sho we like fake abit but of coz act normal lor say wad get up ar eu ok which leg hurt.. den

REVA: press press here and thr
LALA: shout at her say eu press here and thr eu think can meh stupid leh eu =.=

den every body panic panic!!! after awhile cher finish talkin to siti le he walk to whr adrina ish he was about to carry her... :O! den she woke up and say
CHER HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY :DDDD!
cher was like dam shock lar but he was laughin we whr like clappin ROFLs!~ cher say our class dam cool lor act also vry gd.. den he say he vry sad coz he tio cheat. D: !

den ish sci cher we use another style lor :X ! must go lab mah sho we all go but 5 go in lab w8 4 cher nia lols and others hide in toilet 1st den cher come..

CHER: All here O_O*
5PPL: ya cher all absent :DD
CHER: Diss belive but start class anyways
1PPL: sms the rest ask them can come le xD
THE REST: comes in sit down
CHER: WA!~
5PPL: ORH dey all come le hoho
CHER: huh?!~ *BLUR
ALL: HAPPY APRIL FOOLS XP!

and sho the day in sch was stupid ~__~ !
but for 4ppl was suckked up lor .. hoho orhbby~ hu ask them ass itchy go voideck near sch smoke tio caught by passerby. 2day call by cher to talk den cher call there parents all dam scared lor D: dun wan name them anyways. one every say she wan attamp suside :O she this kinda thing go home tio nag nia jiu wan suside sho i have 3police case shld die long ago?! den 2others dun wan go home hoho.. but also duno hu ish tat idiot 2 tell cher also neber use brains lor if it was him or her tat was caugth smokin c how dey cry sia!!! BRAINLESS PPL@!!!

2008-04-01T15:47:00.002+08:00

WALAN EH MY MOTHER FUCKKING CB MOTHER DUN MAKE MI DULAN 1 DAY SHE WHOLE BODY ITCHY ISH IT _l_ ! LIM BU 2DAY COME BAK SCH DAM NOT HAPPY LIAOWS NOW COME BAK STILL TIO EU GAN.. WTFUCKKING HELL EU WAN FROM MY LIFE SIA EVERY DAY SAY MY ROOM MESSY OTHER PPL ROOM WA DAM CLEAN DAM CLEAN DEN EU MARRY OTHER PPL LAR MARRY MY DAD FOR WTFUCKK?! EU UR BRAINS CAN? ASK MI DO THIS DO TAT SUA I DO LOR. SAY WAD WAN DO DO PROPELY PLZ LOR ALSO NOT I WAN 2 DO DE CAN? UR CB GOT PROBLEM DEN SAY LAR FUCKKER.. IM FUCKKING PISSED CAN? EVERY THING ALSO CANOT ASK MI GO DIE BETTER RIGHT? EVEN IF I SMOKE DADDEH ALSO NEBER SAY ANY THING. MACHAM EU KNOW HALF SINGAPORE GONE CAN? Y AM I LIKE TAT ASK URSELF ISH EU PHEK MI UNTILL LIKE TAT ONE LOR. AND ISH ALSO BECAUSE OF EU P6 I WERE 2 RUN AWAY FROM HOME. AND DID EU COME AND BAIL MI OUT IN THE POLICE STATION ? NO.. ISH DADDEH COME DE ALL MY 3 CASE ALL DADDEH COME ONE LOR WAD EU DO SIA SIT AT HOME AW8TING MI 2 COME BAK SHO EU CAN SCOLD? AND IF EU SAY EU UNDERSTAND MI EU AR SHO DAM FUCKKING WRONG PLZ DONT UNDERSTAND IF EU CARNT AND HOR I DUN EVEN WAN EU 2 UNDERSTAND. AND FOR MY BD DID EU WISH MI HAPPY BIRTHDAY? DID EU SAY WA EU 1 YEAR OLDER LE HOR LIKE DADDEH DID I M NOT TRYING 2 COMPARE BUT WAD I WAN TO SAY ISH EU ALWAYS TAKE THE CREADIT LIKE DADDEH WAS THE ONE HU ALWAYS BRING MI TO SCH WAD EVER HAPPEND TO MI HE WILL BE THE FIRST TO RUSH DOWN WHEN I NO MONEY DADDEH KNOWS EU LEH MUST I SAY DEN EU GIF LIKE 5 PERTATIC DOLLARS!!!! ALWAYS COMPARE MI TO MY PRI SCH FWEN SHO WAD SHE ISH CLEAN CLEVER BLA BLA BLA YAR LOR SHE VRY GUAI LOR .. SORRY! LOR I NT THOSE TYPE MACHAM UR DOG LIKE TAT. PUT THE BLAM ON MI DO I FUCKKING CARE. BUT WHEN EU SAY THINGS TAT IM NOT I FUCKKING CARE.!?

2008-03-30T14:16:00.005+08:00

Whell this ish a vry long long time ago image le but be4 i reformat com i saved it.. its a realy meaningfull pic to mi.. some other ppl some be thinkin *wad very normal wad? got vry special meh. YESH its vry special to coz. this ish foot prints of mi and daddeh walkin along deh china beach with one leg :D. deh other set was any how de . and for most of use singapore ish like beach ar aiya sure croweded de lar. but this beach was nt at all tho it was a sunday afternoon. kinda cold to D: but i still waer my skinny n a shirt out. i was like freezin the wind was like *WASHHA..FUFU~*

if ppl know mi whell den eu will know tat i have to family :D.. i have 2 great daddehs 2 nt vry gd mummehs tho D:

daddeh in china.. whell he came from a vry poor familyD: but now in china he ish famous :D coz he worked his way through.. *PROUD OF HIM :D*

mummeh in china . aiya also dunno whr she die 2..

daddeh in sg. he ish the 1 who understands mi D: but he always go oversea

mummeh in sg. she always find things to scold mi lor D: but some times i mean vry little she ish funny...

and also i trip to china was a one tat i will neber forget. :D the day when i step in deh 6star hotel for 1 whole week *WEEE~* but be4 tat we stayed at my aunties house which ish like sho omg! the soup she let mi drink inside it i saw 2 giant ant X_X but i still drink it up n nthin happen hoho...

and and the tour ard china wad wooo~ got to climbe mountain .... got 3m steps :O! coz we walk by stairs D: we climb @ 7am in deh morning climb bak down @ 2pm we stop on top like 1h nia D:

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dar - our 1month ish just like 5days aways :D but it seemed like ytd tat i met eu ...

erin - we have gone through alot ~ in this past 8years nno matter how sad or happy it maybe.. i know tat eu ar always thr for mi n that i cn count on eu too..

kor - i know ur family prob D: but plz dunt try endin ur life or sho .. i always known eu as vry random guy ..

these ppl just always n may forever but deh smile on my face :DD! i love them sho much tat even a million tears ish nt worth ...

2008-03-30T13:12:00.002+08:00

ytd thok cnt go out D: sadded!~... but uncle cor my mummeh go play [no water swimin] =.= eu all shld get deh idea. sho i was like *YAY ! sho when to grandma's house said *HI* and walked to erin's house saw weiwei hoho.. sho we all go bunk 2gtg

Meet up with dar infront of bunk. den he said his bro comin sho we nthin to do jiu talk alot of crap..

played bunk till 7.30pm everyone complained hungry sho we go ps have dinner.. all in all deh fast food [ MAC . KFC . BERGURKING . YOSIMOYA . LJS ] O_O! all full house. sho weiwei decided tat we go 2 food court to eat but i got alot to complain. by the way this is my 2nd and last time i will be eatin in deh food court .. like omg lor even the ice tea dey put like the whole pack of sugar =.= some more sho dam X ... ah well but i also nt thos type tat c money until vry big...

ppl help us clear the table le jiu crap again oer again n again! but yet AGAIN! ~

oh and we made weiwei excersie :D! dam funny ... we like make sho much noise lurh :X!

5more days x3

2008-03-30T13:05:00.003+08:00

Here ish an image of rabbits killing the creator =.=
(KIDS DONT TRY THIS AT HOME !)

This ish erin wearin an altra tiny slipper ...

[A fone in a fone :D]

2008-03-29T11:18:00.002+08:00

ytd was sianed got sports day ... 2 much to talked about but any was it was fun xD
Came home ard 1 odd.. thr was a bbq held at nite . was supposingly meeting dar at kovan but he was late it was rainning sho i asked him not to come lor.

BBQ =.= alright the food suckks i means its cold im vry cold to. D: erin say i was noiseh DD: sadded. when i dunt talk ppl say i EMO when i talk ppl say i noiseh sho wad eu wan ? weiwei say just be normal but for mi to be normal ish to crap. im frm RETARD family of all the things we do crapin being retard ish our pride. tat ish the think tat makes a diff in our life which make a diff in other ppls. i mean if we dont crap thr anit colours tho thr ish art. i dun mind find 1 day i go out with erin n weiwei n dont talk eu will find it diffrent belive mi. im sho nt the quite type. n to say we are the 3crapperz how?

WHEN 1 DONT CRAP. IT ISH SHO LOW LIFED!!!

we have passed the point of no return... no second glances... no more questions asked... passed the point of no return......

2008-03-29T11:13:00.000+08:00

I have always been lonely...
But now your here with me...
i dont want you to leave me...
i have felt alone, but now you're here with me...
what am i missing inside?
promise me....
you will always be with me....
promise me....
you will always catch me when i fall....
please dont turn your back on me....
youre the only one that understands...
im sorry....
im not the perfect girl....
please dont leave me all alone...
you are the best thing that i have...
you have given me more than i ever expected....
now i wonder what will happen next....
We have something we are shareing now...
We have something on the way...
I need you...
I need you more than ever now....
i cant do this....
on my own....
i need you...
i dont want to be alone anymore....
you saved me....
'from a life of pain....
i love you...
and i always will...
we are togather...
and i want it to last...
forever...
youre here with me...
i never want to be alone...
again....
& i love you

2008-03-26T18:44:00.004+08:00

by *StarSmith

1. What's your name - Rosamund

2. What do you wish your name was, instead - Neber thoght of it but a japanese will be nice

3. How are you - okok lar

4. Would you ever eat sushi? - DUHA?

5. Would you ever eat sushi off a naked body? - No. too many germs.

6. Have you considered homosexuality? - I suppose..

7. What's your sexual preference? - Females at the moment.

8. What were you in a past life? - Dunno sia

9. I punch you. Quick, what do you do? - *PUNCH's bak

10. When confronted with Britney Spears, you...? - Will she even confront mi

11. What's your favorite coffee? - I don't like cappocino

12. What's your political perspective? - hu ish my Master.

13. Are you my Angel? - Probably not. sorry.

14. Do you consider yourself a poet? - Definatly not.

15. What do you wanna be when you grow up? - I'm really old... I'm already grown up.

16. There's a naked man in your living room. What do you do? - Kick him out of my house.

17. How stupid do you think you are? - Not as stupid as you.

18. How stupid do other people think you are? - Not as stupid as them.

19. Who the hell do you think you are? - Smarter than you so shut the hell up.

20. Is the Wonderbra good or bad? - bra? WTF!

21. If you could levitate, who would you scare first? - I can levitate?..

22. What's your favorite fruit? - grapes

23. Can you feel the love tonight? - yupe :D

24. On a nude beach, you would...? - Leave.

25. Make up a story with yourself - ONCE APONE A TIME DE END ~

26. What do you think about contemporary art? - Meh...

27. Do you like being naked? - No unless bathin lar .

28. If we had proof God didn't exist, what would happen? - Nothing.

30. What's your position on virginity? - er ...

31. On civil unions -*shurg*

32. On RuPaul - Who the hell is that?

33. On mosquito bites - always get monquito bites. they love me?.

34. On bad sitcoms - Don't watch tv.

35. On Fran Drescher - Who?

36. Are you left handed or right handed? - both handed.

37. Are you smart? - If you were as smart as me you'd remember you asked me that already.

38. What's your middle name? - don't have one.

39. How many personalities do you have? Just one.

40. How many piercings do you have? - 4left 2 right = 6.

41. What was your first word? - WTF!.

42. Are you superstitious? - Alittle

43. Do you read your horoscope? - Yeah.

44. Do you believe in that stuff? - Wad stuff O_O

45. Can you do a cartwheel? - when I feel like it.

46. Do you have contact lenses? - Yupe

47. Do you have a retainer or braces? - No.

48. Can you drive? - i may crash

49. Do you snore? - Of course not.

50. Do you drool in your sleep? - No man!

51. Do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge? - LICK? ew!!!.

52. Do you keep a journal? - alot .

53. Do you like onions? - No.

54. Do you like cotton candy? - Sometimes.

55. What instruments can you play? - alot.

56. Do you like to dance? - when i feel like it .

57. Do you like to sing? - i dont even sing when i go Kbox O_O.

58. Are you any good at it? - Good at?

59. Do you like to talk on the phone? - yupe crap ish my style.

60. Do you like where you live? - yupes its near mrt busstop shopping mall fwens house kors house alots.

61. Are you organized? - im messy.

62. Do you sleep with socks on? - FOr wad!? .

63. Are you shy? - Kind of indifferent.

64. Do you talk to yourself? - MAD?.

65. Are you a morning person? - nope.

66. Are you a virgin? - yupe.

67. Are you proud of that? - coz im.

68. Do you believe in reincarnation? - I guess.

69. Do you believe in God? - Who ever made this survey has the I.Q. of a goldfish.

70. Do you believe in ghosts? - Yes, since I was one for a while.

71. Do you believe in bigfoot? - maybe.

72. How old do you wish you were? - Younger than I am.

73. What will you name your daughter? - BITCH?

74. Son? - JERK?

75. Have you ever thought you were gonna die? - everyday

76. Where do you wanna go? - sleep

Ever...

1: Been kissed? - Yes.
2: Done drugs? - don do but take?
3: Eaten an entire box of Oreos? - ya its nice.
4: Been on stage? - long ago?
5: Dumped someone else? - i guess
6: Gotten in a car accident? - no
7: Watched "Punky Brewster"? - WTH ish tt
8: Been in love? - eu betcha

Favorites…

9: Shampoo - The stuff in the bathroom.
10: Toothpaste - The stuff in the bathroom.
11: Soap - The stuff in the bathroom.
12: Type of soup - Miso.
13: Room in your house - My room.
14: Instrument - classic guitar

Either/Or..

15: Coffee or hot chocolate? - why isn't tea an option?

16: Big or little? - depends

17: Lace or satin? - Satin.

18: New or old? - depends

19: Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt? - who?

20: Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt? Again. - who?

21: Vogue or Material Girl? - who are Vogue and Material girl?

22: Jeans or cords? - Neither.

23: Sweater or sweatshirt? - Sweater.

24: T-shirt or tank top? - Tank.

25: Skirt or dress? - skirt if i must choose... dress make mi look old =.=

26: Wool or cotton? - Cotton lar wool vry hot de leh.

27: Rose or Lily? - rose.

28: The way it is or the way it was? - The way it is.

29: Oldies or pop? - pop.

30: Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? - boyfriend

31: Do you have a best friend? - more enermys tho

In the last 24 hours, have you...

32: Cried? - nope

33: Helped someone? - ya mummeh

34: Bought something? - candy.

35: Gotten sick? - not 2day.

36: Gone to the movies? - No.

37: Gone out for dinner? - No dinner at home.

38: Said "I love you"? - i just did.

39: Written a real letter? - nope

40: Moved on? - move on wad?

41: Talked to an ex? - within 24h nah?

42: Missed an ex? not at all.

43: Written in a journal? havent done tat tho.

44: Talked to someone you have a crush on? - er i have no crush but i do have a boyfriend

45: Had a serious talk? - Yes.

46: Missed someone? - I always miss eu.

47: Hugged someone? - kor?.

48: Fought with your parents? - I don't know my parents but i do i always fight with my forster mother.

49: Fought with a friend? - currently no.

Do you.....

50: Wear eye shadow? - No.

51: Put on a "front"? - tat means?

52: Kiss on the first date? - wont wan 2.

53: Have a crush on someone? - dont have 2

54: Eat with your mouth open? - WTF ?! how 2 chew?

55: If you got a tattoo, where would you get it, and what would it be? - On my back 7 - 9cm above waist.. a chinese zhu word n simple patterns?

56: What color is your floor/- marble white.

57: What was the last CD you bought? - Don't buy CD's .. always dl

58: How did you spend last summer? - slacking!

59: When's the last time you showered? - A few hours ago.

60: Are you tired? - Yes!.

61: Are you lonely? - use to .

62: Are you happy? - More or less.

63: Are you wearing pajamas? - one word childish!?.

64: Are you talking to someone online? - alot.

65: What are the initials of your crush/interest/spouse? - i told eu i aint have 1.

66: What is your astrological sign? - LEO

67: What is the sign of your crush/interest/spouse? - ...

68: What time is it? 9.00pm

2008-03-25T21:43:00.002+08:00

today sian tuseday D: count down ... 10 more days. awhell was foldin harts in sch like the whole time O_O. i cnt belive it i didnt get sian of it :O! tats coz every hart means of how much i miss eu x3 kor call mi 2 disturb mi D: say loads of random stuff. but i think erin more random we doin things or shld i put it as packin things up she suddenly talks about CONDOMS! :O!

sigh~ hm..

SCH - folding harts all day :D

AFTER SCH - go c doc D:

AT HOME - Blogskinging . MSN . still folding harts . smsing dar . crap with kor .

PLUG IN - one love~

was just thinkin if i wont in PLMGSS hu will i be ? what will i turn to? how i will live
will it all be diff? lols

2008-03-24T20:11:00.002+08:00

The day I met you
I found a friend -
And a friendship that
I pray will never end.

Your smile - so sweet
And so bright -
Kept me going
When day was as dark as night.

There were times when we didn't see eye to eye
And there were days when both of us cried.
But even so we made it through:
Our friendship hasn't yet died.

Circumstances have pulled us apart,
We are separated by many miles.
Truly, the only thing that keeps me going
Is my treasured memory of your smile.

This friendship we share
Is so precious to me,
I hope it grows and flourishes
And lasts unto infinity.

You are so extra-special to me
And so this to you I really must tell:
You are my one true friend,
My Guardian Angel.

Our friendship is one-in-a-million
So let's hold on to it and each other.
We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away
For there will never be another.

I love you.
I will always love you.

BUT...

As the teardrops fall
I realise that it is only a drop
In the vast ocean of sorrow,
The weeping will continue,
It is the very flow of life.

Unwelcome are the feelings,
Sorrow, grief, and betrayal,
The banks overflow
The river is swollen,
That river will never run dry.

The clouds have gathered,
Being upset and accepting grief
Is a part of life.
But how much harder does
Life need to get?
Why must we put friendship on the line?

Friendship is a part of life,
Like sorrow grief and even joy,
Yet so much pain comes from
Ones happiness, even if it does
Heal in time.

Loosing a friend
It hurts too much,
It should not happen to anyone.
Friendship is for life,
And should not last until the first open-fire.

Feelings could cost us so much hurt
But they are the things that make us
Human.

-NO CMMENTS-

2008-03-24T18:16:00.004+08:00

Everyone needs compassion
A love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
But i just need you LOVE !

Eh today was BORING BORING BORING BORING BORING!

Nothing to do lor D: sho change 2 deh same blog skin as dar :X Den jiu chat with dar on msn e whole day lor ..

IT SATURDAY MUHAHA~

2008-03-23T14:53:00.003+08:00

Ytd when for a church service.. xD be for tat dar came to mer house. haha over sit a stop hor orbi :X ! after tat my fwen also come lor we watch cartoon sho lame. 11odd we go hougang mall w8 for weiwei lor sho slow. den i convinced her to eat KFC :D! the drama ish nice yupe yupe .. after tat ish like nthin to do sho we went home. erin came to mi house to stay. but befor tat we when to hougang mall again. buy dinner lols eat long john silver dunno wad pirate meal... den we bought doughnuts home to eat. woot long time neber eat le.. den my mum stool 1 D: seh say neber den i stare at her den she say *yar lar got lar * lol childish sia... n also when we took a lift up tat time arh was like ZOMG!? the lift stop at 5th story for dam long we thok we sure die le .. but it jerk n went on .. the 9th story it says 3 .. we stared go lvl 3 meh O_O? ... den deh door open we were like heleluya.. den we faster take another 1 but the B lift keep comin bak X_X den when it reach story 9 again it was like *as the pic shown*

COOKIE MOSTER EATS DOUGHNUTS?

GOOD FRIDAY

2008-03-20T18:05:00.003+08:00

AND today was sian ... 2molo good friday :D

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY ALL !
sho wad ish good friday all about? this ish the day whr go send his son jesus down to die for us. by using his blood to wash away our sins. ppl must be thinkin *wad some 1 die for us? and we dont even know him?* O_O tat ish one stupid man ? but tats not true.

to be a gods child also doent mean he will protect eu from every thing or even gif eu money droped from the sky? but thr ish one thing much much more beta beta den tat ..
ish tat he love eu his love ish ever lasting ever sho real if eu belive.

tho i dun go church very very offten but i do read the bible. coz i am bord and tat i wan god to be my friend when im alone . tell him my sorrows my worrys.. tat some times i carnt even handle. tho we may not c him. but tat i can feel his love for mi.
tat i cant take things for granted.
tat nothing ish FOC.
tat he always be right beside mi
tat he will love mi if im a somebody or even a nobody
tat he will love mi even if im not perfect
coz no one ish

even tat some one can gif mi all his love and care for mi tat im lucky to have him by my side. but im sure some day we may have some disagrement. tat our love will be tested.. coz nothing ish perfect.

but god's love ish ever sho perfect. coz he will always open arms and welcome us to his side. even if eu dont belive it now. maybe eu can belive it 2molo :D he will always wait even if it means 10years.

wad if you realize tat you whole life has been recorded for the day you were born, and tat you could.
REVISIT THE DAY YOU WERE BORN?
RELIVE THE MOMENTS OF YOUR LIFE?
RE-ENCOUNTER HISTORY AND DISCOVER THE TRUTH?
how would eu feel or even how will eu react?

will we ever get a second chance to live?

It ish said tat and average lifespan of a man ish 80years.
which means 2,522,880,000 senconds to live.
as the clock ends our final counts
will we get a second chance to live?
will we get a second chance to right our wrongs?

so we think tat our life ish full of unlucky-ness nn eg.. eg but have we ever noticed how blessed we were? like as mi i am
BLESSED ...

1. i have a forster parents to take care of mi. if it wornt for them will i be here were im tat i can call a home with the best comfort?

2. a understanding father whr anything goes. :D my role model

3. all my fwens n gan family

4. a dar tat cared alot for mi

5. 3proper meals a day. i had visited a poor side of china n tat i have learned tat dey dont have lights like us. still using candles. children thr go 2 sch with onli sg 20cents a day..

6. a telent to draw tho its nt realy wad i want nt vry nice but i know i can inprove..

the top 6 things tat im blessed with if i were to mention all it will take days. so i think tat we shld be happy of wad we have instead of thinking n complaining of wad we dont have.

RANDOM n unrandom Q

2008-03-17T18:01:00.003+08:00

FROM ERINS BLOG :D

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (Fell down alot D: when playing with erin childhood days)
[x] I tan easily. (not really)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (YES of coz lar)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo. (Guess whr xP)
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. (only randomly when i dun whr contact lens)
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (FOC sia!)
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (wa in sec 1)
[x] I have more than 2 piercing. (Mi have 5)
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents. (use to im nt a vry gd girl as some ppl think im)
[x] I've run away from home. (2days)
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. (when i was p6)
[ ] My biological parents are together. (Divoced)
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday. (erm this is random?)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school (PLMGSS)
[ ] I have a job (I HAD a job)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school (ALWAYS!)
[ ] I almost always do my homework. (some times ba most of the time ish copy :X)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school. (private reason)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry. (stupidity?)
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (always :D)
[x] I've glued my hand to something. (table =.= when i was young play with super glue mah)
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public. (Zomg NO!)

Health

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (RETARDED is counted right?)
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (ear)
[ ] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend. (not emergency room)
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox. (so long ago)

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (I did die but i was slping :X)
[x] I've been on a plane. ( DUH!?)
[x] I've been to Canada. (when i was 6)
[x] I've been to Mexico. (p2 with uncle coz he was workin thr)
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. (i did love to)
[x] I've been to Japan. (p1 family holiday)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (wad the freak ish tat O_o)
[x] I've been to Europe. (p4 family holiday)
[ ] I've been to Africa. (go thr for wad?)

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (when i was young didnt follow mummeh den any how walk :X now im good at directions :D! )
[x] I've seen a shooting star. (was bak in malaysia)
[x] I've wished on a shooting star. (ya a lame wish)
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower. (i did be dead by now ?)
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (when i was young)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (for the fun of it :D & still doing it now :X)
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (pri sch forgot was year got to the offic tho after tat D:)
[x] I've been to a casino. (mummehs fwen open de)
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. (truth or dare issit?)
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. (tat ish insainaty)
[ ] I've crashed a car. (seen 1)
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace. (dont even have an acc)
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights. (i wish)
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night. (at grandma house)
[ ] I've played chicken. (i dun play chicken but i played WITH chicken)
[x] I've played a prank on someone. (1st april)
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. (OBVIOSELY)
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (O_o?)
[x] I've eaten sushi. (i even know who 2 make)
[x] I've been snowboarding. (yupe in china)

Relationships
[ ] I'm single. (attached x])
[x] I'm in a relationship. (YUP YUP)
[ ] I'm engaged. (LOLs?)
[ ] I'm married. (no?)
[ ] I've gone on a blind date. (but i can see D:)
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now. (eu betcha)
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. (i dont like it when ppl reject me)
[ ] I've gotten divorced. (im nt even married O_o)
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. (dont use the word for fun)
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. (yeah)
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. (hmm.. ya i did n still keeping :])

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] I am a cuddler.(the hell is this?!)
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger. (ya free hugs?)
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. (alot)
[x] I've snuck out of my house. (nt always)
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. (some times)
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (BUHAHA)
[x] I've cheated while playing a game. (yup)
[x] I've cheated on a test. (lol! in primary school always write spelling words behind the other page :X)
[x] I've run a red light. (full time jay-walker)
[x] I've been suspended from school. (pri sch for 2weeks)
[x] I've witnessed a crime. (on tv!)
[x] I've been in a fist fight. (with a dumb fwen)
[x] I've been arrested. (ya n dun wish 2 talk about it 3 times le D:)

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol. (always)
[ ] I regularly drink. (nt rly)
[ ] I've passed out from drinking. (never happend)
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed (weed? )
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. (lol last time young mah @_@ )
[ ] I've eaten shrooms. (does the KFC burger counts?)
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills. (lol can ar O_o)
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. (yups but nt all at once lar)
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. (randomly does it)
[x] I take anti-depressants. (whell ya long story...)
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (im a full time zhu)
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. (Depression mah)
[ ] I've woken up crying. (nope i cry befor i slp)

Death and Suicide
[x] I'm afraid of dying. (nt rly)
[x] I hate funerals. (ya its rly sad to c ppl die)
[x] I've seen someone dying. (uncle in hospital)
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. (aunt nt vry close tho)
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide. (tried)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself. (for wad?)

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime. (is it unhealthy)
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books. (duh loads)
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay. (with dads help)
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

Random

[ ] I can sing well. (i suck in tat)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. (er for wad sia)
[ ] I open up to others easily. (ah no i dont)
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs. (i dont kill but smack )
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly. (:X)
[x] I sing in the shower. (when i was young)
[x] I am a morning person. (i'm not grumpy or anything)
[x] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (last time)
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name. (RETARDED"x"3 ?)
[ ] I love being neat. (>__> lala)
[ ] I love Spam (spam as in computer spam or the luncheon meat like thingy?)
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. (wa siaow)
[x] I bake well. (okok lar )
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. (BLUE n WHITE)
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school. (sch allow tat? O_O)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart. (hu the freak?)
[x] I know how to shoot a gun (i dont own a gun or anything. we tried gun shooting last time)
[x] I am in love . (ya :D)
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS. (use to... lol)
[x] I laugh at my own jokes. (always)
[ ] I eat fast food weekly. (not every every week)
[x] I believe in ghosts. (hmm i dunno but ya)
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. (nt realy 24/7 tho)
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. (flys)
[x] I am really ticklish. (only when mummeh attacks)
[x] I love white chocolate. (milk choco as well)
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces. (hmm.. hai hao lar )
[x] I'm good at remembering names. (some chimi)
[x] I'm good at remembering dates. (yupe i write it down)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (SIGH!?~)

[x] All of those are answered honestly (durh~?)

2008-03-17T17:25:00.002+08:00

woots wa~ thx kor nt sad le eu ish dam random de lor D: dunno wad talk about fish to the sky to when we meet den how eu wan die =.= ok but it was funny funny funny :D we lurf lurf lurf! MUHAHA n i also make eu lurf until stomach ach :X !

kor im really happy tat eu 明白(:

but any ways no matter how much my mummeh quarrel or scold mi i guess i still i lurfs my mummeh the way she ish. but i wounder if she lurfs mi D: she ish also always full of crap n randomness x3. but she ish scary at times T.T !

hm.. going out with mummeh 2molo .. orchard :D cineleisure shopping & also sign mi up for (russian course) ... dunno details yet 2molo den will know D: sho 2molo den say :D !

Haix cher talked bout ITE ! D: damit y now but at least i learn tat the course i wanted wad all shit coz ish i no use de lor (degital animations) hmm.. was telling my mummeh about this she was like *c lar i tell eu liaows useless things* i was kinda sad but at least i know n nt regret ba D: sho instead im goin for tourism or bakery D: but i do kinda like touring... sho i guess... at least i get to travel ard the world FOC!!!!!!! :DD! *evil laughs*

2008-03-16T13:02:00.001+08:00

哪里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有云都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

2008-03-15T17:15:00.002+08:00

something simple :D

COOKIE MONSTER

2008-03-15T14:34:00.004+08:00

ItS 2 COOKIE MONSTER ! *ARH!* whell i am lazy to update D: dunno wad 2 say also SIGH!

SCHOOL REOPENING T.T I DUN WANA GO TO SCHOOL ITS STILL A VRY LONG WAY TILL THE NXT HOLIDAY..

i wana stay at home slack tho its boring D: .. i got to watch kozora for the second time ..its really a nice movie *shimer shimer* i wan the DVD! badly ... i wana faster go ite secondary school life suck to the core... ish not tat i dun like my fwens in school but

will anyone understand... just when we ar dieing we wish to live longer but when we get to live longer we wish to die.. so wad rly ar we wishing for?

CURRENTLY :

-SLACKING

-EATING (CHOCO PIE)

-PHOTOSHOPING

-SMSING

-LISTENING TO (HEAVENLY DAYS)

-CHATING ON MSN

2008-03-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

*[KOIZORA]*

I turn off the time to wake up before the alarm clock ressounds
I don't know why but I can already remember you

I wonder if, before I know it, I'll forget
even the miracle of being able to meet you for one hundred minutes
Will I end up forgetting even that I've forgotten?

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
I'm locking up those days that are still a bit warm

Tired of walking, I sat down and was at a loss, if you were with me
We could have talked about something like our unbearable dream's fate

I couldn't say it by the ticket barrier, I wanted to say
That I feel "Thank you" are maybe words
much sadder than "goodbye"

Heavenly days, I wonder if I could smile properly
At the scene of our last kiss, I couldn't even
grasp your shivering hands, not even my tears fell, ah
Now that it's too late, they overflow when I'm alone

Heavenly days, in the room in the pocket of my heart
I look for your vanished warmth
Even if there's no way to feel you ever again, ah
Even if I stretch out my hands, you're not here anymore
I'll walk on under a new light

2008-03-12T10:30:00.002+08:00

Mi && erin went out for a movie [SKY OF LOVE] but also known ar [KOIZORA]! iis a really worth watching again show.. but this show came out few weeks bak sho its gona end this coming thursday T_T.. && this show onli show in cathay.. so i just hope thr is the DVD will be sold in singapore or i will buy the comic D: ! it made almost 70 - 80 % of the viewers cryed.

the guy ish sho nice lar D: && yet before the girl know wad happend to him she decided to go to another guy.. *aw~ .. she promised no to love but she loved again.. but any ways it wasent such a lovely ending as most shows.. like mirical orsh something.. the guy died D: ..

BEST TRAILER

http://www.dailymotion.com/related/5361945/video/x3bvnh_shortfilms

&& after the show mi and erin took neoprints :D its been awhile since

Haix my daddehs goin away again this time he wont be bak in a long while D:

*WAVES TO DADDEH *

2008-03-10T13:35:00.003+08:00

With fast move i close the door...
Just like i close my heart...

im scared?

i cry out and fall to the ground...
I hear my tears falling on the floor...

im hurt?

All this pain i been holding in mi...
All these years i have spent in this room...

im lonely?

my loud cries heard in the whole world...
But no one comes to mi...

Don't they care?

I heard my last cry...
And now my room is so silent...

What have i done?

2008-03-10T12:50:00.000+08:00

Kinda boring yet busy week end x] chalet haix go coz i m bord -.- sort of lar. sat be for goin chalet when tu bugis with erin sho she can get her 10$ ear pice :D n i get my vintage jaket.. ask her bring hm D: after go bunk walk walk.. audi kinda sian le mi goin bak maple *BOO~* wad to do .. woots i like my blog song all the remix :D butterffly . cinderella . bumble beee . eg.. i forget le :D 8min odd song. D: long but nice lar its been awhile ever since i put a techno / remix song on my blog le found this sng intrestin x]..

went chalet . den when hm at 1am odd D: climb 2 drain walk 2 main road lucky got taxi stop 4 mi :D* but he cheat my money Dx he took the longer way.. n some more midnite charge 50% .. almost 20$$ T.T

Sunday den again went out with daddeh got a 3 in 1 printer lor dad trow mi at sim lim to take taxi hm.. haix den i sit on the box the qeeu sho long Dx the box thr the handle spoi X_X i have been woundering i have mat alot of nice taxi uncle this 2days sia :D! *lucky mi* all c mi liaows chat with mi .. den got a sms jiu go down deh chalet yet again *yaosiew ar* ah whell ..

Go hm @ round 11 tho of takin train hm but scared when i go purple line will miss e last train sho again take taxi hm .. This taxi uncle ish a indian but christian.. he talked alot but i like was he say

(to give ish to be blessed)
(forgive n forget)
(god will always thr for mi)
(when i m alone ask god to be my fwen)

was moved by this four sentenc whell guess its kinda true. x]

he send mi hm onli 10$$ woots thank eu uncle befor i go down when i pass him the money he told mi good nite n i told him .. *&& uncle eu know wad eu will be blessed to* uncle just smile..

den today waked up ard 8odd wan slp more de but my fuggin mother come just bang the door n came in without a knock _l_ nvm i was like wad ... long story lor .. she scold mi ask mi wake up .. den she crap again i talk bak coz i cant take it any more Dx he go her rm take my dads belt whack mi i just stand thr lor it bleed my hart hurt .. but wad can i do? i wana cry but im nt those tat cry de.

haix i just dont understand her do i owe her? mummeh how many million do i owe eu? O_o????

i just wish to get out of this place ASAP i dun wana fight no more. coz in my hart i have hurt enuff realy enuff ish enuff when the fugging hell will eu get enuff. )x im sad rly sad .
NO WORDS WILL EVER EXPLAIN HOW SAD I AM . i just need some one hu will understand mi or even if dont understand. try lor Dx but tat person neber came. all nite i pray to god for peace thr ant no answer.

guess 3 more years i willl be goin oversea for my study just 3 more years. please just fastern the time 3 more years including this year Dx after ite mi will be goin china strait to
REPUBILC OF CHINA UNIVERSATYY
it will be a whole new life x] i will be happy. *awaits tat day* whr i can leave this fugged up hurt full un-understanding place. even if i leave no one willl care. sho plz make this 3 years a fast one. DDD:

2008-03-07T17:56:00.000+08:00

someday when the lights have dimmed
and the rain's set in
when time and memory are all that's left
someday when the streets are empty
crowded with fog
and drowned in silence
someday when i grow weary
and i can't remember where i've been
when all i ever dream about is worth a fin
I'll ... find eu.
And refresh our childhood
Tho its of ups and really downs
But the memory i had with you will always remain
Deep down in my heart
Each day when i see you
You seemed to fade away
I just dont wish to end like this
I remember you once told mi
Never give up
So why are you giving up now
I just wish you could tell mi how you are feeling now
Or even .. The hurt eu are feeling now..

2008-03-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

today morning ish dam suay de lor D: forgot my file nvm go bak up n take. be4 that i was washin my cup gona put it bak le but it drop ... drop jiu brk lor n i got cut my it worst come to worst my house has no PLASTER ! RARW! T.T

Sigh~ sometimes i just think that living in this world ish such pain.. ii just carnt take it D: ii wish to leave this world ASAP! i feel sorry to all but.. i just carnt take this life it hurt alot..

my dads goin oversea again dunno when he will be bak. holiday ish a whole lot of hell for mi with my mummeh at home. MIA thoght of it :D.

or maybe i shld go bak.. being here ish meaningless to mi. no matter how much i wish to make some 1 happy i carnt. i carnt even do this little simple thing well. im such a failer. im the one deserving to die.

sho now wad. yay im lost HAPPY!? maybe.

well eu ppl feel how i feel
go though wad i have gone through
walk my path
be in shoes n eu will know y i deserve to die. i will be happy to....

good nites all. im goin to slp now. i wish i wont wake up after i slp :D

2008-03-06T17:54:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry that I’m not good enough
and that we’re just too far apart.

I’m sorry that I didn’t sound sincere enough
even though I was speaking from my heart.

I'm sorry that I'm not first in class this tearm
even thhough I had tried my best.

But I’m not that one that called it off
when I couldn’t stomach the ride.

ii dont wan it this way if .. if mummy eu would ever understand. I'm sorry for hu im. but this is rly wat im n nothing will chng it. ii will neber be ur gd girl. but i know ii will make eu proud of mi. tho i dont think the day will happend..
to eu i maybe an idiot. eu will always tell mi how gd ur fwens daughter ar. did i ever care must eu tell mi all this 2 hurt mi. have you thought of my feelings or reflect on urself. just tat little bit?
ii had done my best in life have eu tried to understand mi. nt just by say?

{DEH END}

Whell sch kinda boring today tho cher let us watch movie... bit he neber let us finish watchin D: but we countinue e movie 2molo :D. && thr ish a parents meetin 2molol T.T my daddeh comin *HENG AR* ..

&& my fwen amanda.J came 2 sch kinda stressed ba "family prob" she didnt slp ytd D: *poor thing* nvm let her slp in class lor. but how the FUUGING HEL can she spl when eu ppl FUGGING low life makin shoo much noise -.-

PLZ LAR HOR. WAN ACK LIAN BUAI LIAN LEH!

den recess i talked to her i guess her family prob was kinda bad..

ii have gone throught the hurt as much as her now its much more worste trust mi afew knows .. but i am all beta now. y carnt eu ppl just try understanding ..

HOW MUCH IT HURT BUT IT CARNT BE SAID OR ACKED OUT

HOW MUCH WE HAVE TO PAY FOR ALL THIS

Y MUST IT HAVE TO BE US

PPL CAN NEBER HEAR HOW LOUD WE AR SCREAMING FOR HELP

HOW MUCH WE WISH TO END LIFE

BUT THERE ISH SO MUCH MORE TO BE DONE

HOW MUST TWIST N TURNS OUR ROAD ISH

just try to understand..

thats all we ar askin for from eu ish it tat diff ish it THAT FUGGING DIFFICULT?!

did eu all ever feel how scary it ish to be locked up in a big rm with 4 walls? just feel it...

2008-03-06T17:50:00.000+08:00

Roses are red
And violets are blue
But words can’t express
How much I love you

So here is my heart
Do with it what you will
I’ll be your paper
If you’ll be my quill

Please carve your name
Across my heart
And tell me you’re mine
Like I was yours from the start

I’ve said this before
And I’ll say it again:
The most beautiful stories
Don’t ever end

(c) ROS 2008 :D! 5:53pm

2008-03-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

&& my photoshop again :D! *shiffty eyes*

2008-03-05T22:42:00.000+08:00

wa today ish sian de lor D: sho was like fug. cher neber come.. but when he came he like suddenly sho x.x alot of us were usein mp3 or handfonr lor licky he ish thoes thye tat dun care de tho he ish out form cher. After sch meet kor at my house thr. I told him i nt hungry he say no must eat sho he bought mac spicy for mi (TY KOR)x33 .. den we chat chat mi jiu go home le. vry borin coz nthin happend much today leh D: i m tired lar. wish sch will be beta tomorrow :D

2008-03-05T18:43:00.001+08:00

...

2008-03-02T11:39:00.000+08:00

YTD! saturday always stone my world :D MUHAHAHA.... mummeh ask mi go cut hair sho go cut lor. Den the lady like vry scared to cut my hair like tat. Den erin was starin at the lady O_O. *hua cut sho fast* After tat she help mi gel my hair :D. Hey i am bad at gel-in hair so she help mi gel. *Rubs here n thr* But it was raining =.= The worste this was my grandma's unbrella that i lend frm her has a hole on top.. Bo Bian wet liaows lor.

Sho when the rain stop we jiu go bunk le. sho sian we canot even play an hour. Den i complain hungry sho we went to e douby exchange to eat.

FREE FLOW OF ICE CREAM N N DRINK N duno wad lar but i know dey got free flow of almost every thing :DDDD. Den thr was this uncle hu keep starin at us... May be is i tell to much cold joke >_<>

After the heavy heavyy lunch we go ps jalan jalan. I need to get gel coz tt time i use my dads hair gel it was like harderner... my hair tat time harden up... some more i any how spike it. After ps we whent to AMK hub.

We walk suang le take bus go bak lor. stop at the swing park. to play swing :D brings bak all the old memorys. Den thr was a house behinde the parkk whr got alot of air corn de the house sho small got more den 5aircorn ... erin ask mi go thr earn money i was like O_O y? she say dey nt enuff cold jokes sho need sho many air corn mah...

Ard 7.30 wo jiu go hm le coz i dun wan to stay thr vry vry sian de . take bus home this stupid indian guy stare at mi.. but like i have to walk a long way home. sho i call my di go down hougang mall w8 for mi.. Coz he stay near thr any ways. Sho he walk mi home lor. but befor tat we go hougang mall thr but dounuts xD.

Go home my papa cook le eat le he go out so was alone at home T.T play maple lor... After that jiu chat with. dar <> have to w8 for mummeh come come also coz she neber bring key >_> i w8ted till ard 4 odd she came bak lor ..

2008-03-02T11:31:00.000+08:00

2008-03-02T10:43:00.000+08:00

2008-02-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

Deh 10$ big note winner. RETARD.

And again..!

Deh 2 IDIOTS trying to be a RETARD.

A little picnic in class.

I beging to belive our form cher looks like a MONKEY!!! *ahem*

Guess school toilet not that dirty ba. *think again*

*HELAP* iim bleeding does my house has had a plaster? -.0"

Of coz its my fav-ed charecter wor :D!

Saw this van on e way home *SHIMMER*

2008-02-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

Problems in my house. Unable to be fixed by lightening the mood. Or a comment hear and theirNever knowing when to talk and when to shut up. For fear of setting the bomb off. Just when the smoke had cleared from the previous explosion. Thinking of my world had stopped making mi cry. Just to find out just how well it still can br. Over and over again... The explosion rockets through mi again. And iim helpless to stop it going off. ii cant do anything to make it better. Fearing for one that would tear mi.. World apart for good. And dealing with more than the people who are setting it off. Will ever know Until its too late. And iim already gone. Into my head and are never coming back. ii go and ignore reality. To stop the hurting and pain. But it still comes back to mi. Like a fly that just keeps coming back. ii cant kill it. But ii cant ignore it.?!

Why just why people canot understand..? Just when i need some one to talk to people just leave mi. Just when dey need help dey come bak. I am tired. I dont wana be here any more. I just wish i could slowly fade away soon. I dont wana be here any more. Since my mum shoo want mi to go oversea to study shld i say yes. But thats not wad i rly wan. But i also dont wana be here any more. Nothing ish important to mi ant more. Nether am i important to any 1 .. soo? i shld go to a place whr no one knows mi and start again?.. Can any one gif mi an answer. That i said so much will any 1 even care? hu will care to feel my hurt my pain. ?!.. But wad can ii do.?

Whell went out with pri school fwen.. Woots chat . laught . draw alot. >_< bhb =".="">

2008-02-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

My heart is screaming,
My hands are bleeding,
From the way I’ve been treated,

By so-called mother,
Who know no ends
of torture. FINE! I’ll admit! I’m defeated!

I’ve been shoved from de earth,
Kicked from the coop,
I feel there’s no one left for me.

I want to cry everyday,
From the things that they say,
Maybe one day, she will see…

That it’s just who I am,
But no one understands,
Who I am inside.

And until they see
Inside of me,
From them, I will hide.

They don’t accept what I like,
Like my favorite hobby, or my favorite food,
But they expect me to accept them.

So now, all I need
Is a person to see,
Who i really am inside.
That what I need?!...

[IT END-ED]

I am tired liaows why why of all people my mum must be the one not understanding mi!

So who am ii?Even my mum dont understand mi...Check my room .. can i even have some privacy? When i MIA .. have eu even cared.. Have eu ever reflect on urself? Can eu even fit 2 be a mother? Please lor. Would eu even care how i feel. How hurt i am?

What have i do 2 deserve this? I wish i could be gone 2molo.

{JUST SIMPLY SLOWLY FADE AWAY}

I ever wish to end my life. but i wont coz i am going to show eu ITE is nt the end. And designing ish my dream. that eu will look up to mi and watch mi rise. ii.. i just hate it.

HATE SCHOOL - Its just one more year..

HATE EU - 2more years n eu ar gone

HATE ALMOST EVERYTHING - when i die

I just hate to put on a smile every day. Its just so fake! I always belive that tomorrow will be batter. But it seemed worste. I belive in fate but. Now i dont. For a good reason. I am tired i wish to rest. Its really hard to be a living human. Its even harder to be mi...

2008-02-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

Sometimes things are to much to bear,At times I wish I just didn’t care.I look at others with so much envy,How can they stay so happy?Nothing seems to get them down,I hardly ever see them frown.That’s when I realize its just an act,Truth is they have it just as bad.Some even have it far worse than I,But to the world they choose to lie.Not wanting anyone to know what’s real,Hiding the pain and the real way they feel.Smiling faces all around,How many are really frowns?Looking into their eyes you can see,Pain and sadness… they too are unhappy.But why do they put on this show?Why don’t they want the world to know?All this time I thought I was alone,Not knowing that others felt the same cold.The cold that you feel when your sad and depressed,When you cant figure why your life’s such a mess.

2008-02-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

HEHE! i shall show off =3!

This was given 2 mi by my papa in china :D tho its piink =.= but nvm. There behinde got alot telephone wan cor ppl ask mi :X!

2008-02-25T21:29:00.000+08:00

Lonely is a state of mind they say
I say it becomes life in a way
Don't tell me I can change
You can't tell me I'm strange

It's a state of mind, you said
But I sometimes wish I was dead
When no one is there by your side
there is no one in whom to confide

You can't tell me I'm the odd one out
That this is what life is all about
You know what I've been through
You know when the debt is due

Is there a man out there
In whom I could actually care?
Or do I live my life alone
And make my heart a stone.

2008-02-22T18:42:00.000+08:00

2008-02-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

Yar lor i know euu hate mi ar? HATE mi for all i care.. can even [SUE] mi lar! NVM its just tat one more year and i shall be gone :D! i will be out of ur side in no time. ii know euu canot w8 for tat day right? ii pray to tat the day will come soon-er..

Every day I walk the halls;
And every day I see me fall,
Trying hard to please them all.

Walking in I see them frown.
Irreversible by a clown.
I try to talk;
But they ignore.
Till I leave;
Tears no more.

I seek a hug;
A caring face.
I receive a shrug;
Without a trace.

Those I’ve loved,
Have come and gone.
While the rest,
Are here to show.

How much less;
I am to them.

Hated !

Well guess wad even if euu ar silently reading this wad i wan to say ish i also hate you ?

I want to shoot you in your face with a shotgun.
I\'d cut off your face if I thought I\'d get away with it.
We both know there\'d be too much blood,
and I\'m a little worriedthat I\'d get squeamish.
I\'d like to play your stupid ribs like some kind of horror movie
Xylophone.
It wouldn\'t be pretty.
You\'re not pretty.
I\m not pretty to.
Sure, that\'s not why I hate you,
but it\'s not helping.I\'m not a butcheror a baker.
But I\'ll be closer to a butcher by the timeI\'m done.

And euu know wad alot of us hate euu to i wont say hu but i hope euu know
euu arr just a FUUCKED UP BACKSTABER! have euu relized? maybe euu have not but in time 2 come euu will :D!

2008-02-17T08:30:00.000+08:00

THE TIMES THAT MI AND ERIN HAVE :D

This is how the RETARD flag a TAXI :D!

Do not Try this at home

SLIPPERS .. WHITE N BROWN COOL BO(:

Xchg SLIPPERS were cool but xchg legs =="

ERIN's BRO *NO DIRTY THOUGHTS* >_>"

AND TATS ERIN TRYING TO BE THE BANANA =_+

People say I'm weird.
[Is that a crime?]
People say I'm different.
[That's why you can see me.]
They tell me I'm not "down to earth."
[They're right, you know.]
They tell me to get my head out of the clouds,
[But they just want to fly, too.]

2008-02-17T07:54:00.000+08:00

こんなに好きなのに
どうして何もかもが壊れていくんだ？
あたしたちはなぜ愛し合った？
切なすぎて混乱しちゃう。
あたしのことを大事にしなきゃやだ！
あたしだけを見て欲しいの！あたしだけのものになってよ！・・・
叫びたいけど、心の声が小さすぎて途中でのどに詰まっちゃう。
どうしてこんなにも不安になるんだろう。あの子は私より可愛い。
あの子は私よりあなたと気が合う。
あの子は私なんかよりずっと素直で優しいのに。
どうしてあたしを選んだの？後悔してる？
あたしを選んだことに後悔ある？あたしは後悔なんかしてないし、
絶対にしない。あたしはあなたがいるから生きていける。
すべてを失ってもすべてを諦めてもあなただけを愛し続ける自信はある。
だけど、あなたは違うのかな？私を、愛してますか？あなたの腕の中が一番心地いいよ。
一緒にいると、世界一の幸せ者だよ。何があったって構わない！この気持ちに嘘は無い。
人はそれぞれ愛し合って、いつか別れる時がある。だけど、
あなたとだけは離れたくない。この気持ちを、無駄にしないでね。
あなたは、あたしに「もっと頼ってもいいよ」と言ってくれた。
その言葉は私を救った。でもやっぱり不安な時は言えないよ。
嫌われたくないから溜めといておく。もう限界だよ・・・私の頭と心の中はあなたでいっぱい。
他の人を愛するなんて、有り得ない。あたしって、うっとうしい？あたしって、
うざい？こんな私を受け止めてくれたのは、あなただけだった。
感謝してるよ。